The Version of Myself I Am Rooting For.

Figuring It Out (The Hard Way)

For a long time, I had no idea what I actually wanted to do.
And honestly? I carried a lot of quiet frustration about that.

I’ve always been creative. Always had the ambition to build something meaningful. As an entrepreneurship minor, I figured I needed to have a groundbreaking idea—some big concept that would change everything. That's what it felt like everyone expected: your own startup, your own business, your own empire.

But I never had the idea.
Not in the way people talked about it.
And after a while, it started to feel like maybe I wasn’t built for that world at all.

The Career Detour That Wasn’t Mine

When entrepreneurship didn’t click the way I thought it would, I convinced myself law was the next logical step.
Corporate law. Intellectual property law. It sounded structured. Safe.
A way to stay connected to innovation without having to create something from scratch.

For a while, I told myself it made sense. But deep down, it felt heavy. It felt like I was preparing for a life I didn’t actually want.
Trying to force excitement where there wasn’t any only made it worse.

Eventually, it became clear: I wasn’t passionate about law, or even interested enough to justify it. I was chasing security because I was scared of uncertainty. I didn’t want to fail. I didn’t want to waste potential. I didn’t want to disappoint the version of myself I thought I was supposed to become.

But building your future out of fear is exhausting—and it’s not sustainable.

Finding a Different Way Forward

Somewhere along the way, I realized there’s more than one way to be part of the world I admire.
Being around entrepreneurs and innovators doesn’t mean you have to be the one with the original blueprint.
You can support them. Grow with them. Help build something that matters.

That realization changed everything.

Finance isn’t the passion of my life, and that’s okay.
It’s a tool. It’s a way to stay close to the projects, people, and energy that inspire me. It’s a practical foundation that leaves room for the creativity and big-picture thinking I care about.

For the first time, the steps I’m taking actually feel like they’re leading somewhere I chose—not somewhere I settled for.
I’m not chasing someone else’s version of success anymore.

Moving at My Own Pace

This summer, I’m giving myself the space to keep figuring things out.
I’m applying for opportunities that genuinely interest me.
Finishing up my classes.
Exploring where my skills can actually take me—not just where they’re “supposed” to go.

It’s not perfect, and I don’t have every answer yet.
But for the first time in a long time, the future feels less like something to survive and more like something to build.

And the version of me who’s learning to trust that—who’s moving forward, even when it’s messy or slow—is the one I’m rooting for.